I read my horoscope today and got a little pumped, ridiculous I know, nevertheless it was pretty cool.
According to the planets you are very close to the tipping point, where one small adjustment or alteration somehow changes everything.
I know it’s silly, completely coincidental, but I still love that kinda stuff. We’re all looking for some sort of external validation of what we believe our purpose is, to feel like we are on some kind of pre-destined mission of some kind. I like to believe that all of the suffering and hard lessons I have learned in business were to bring me to a point where I am finally prepared for success. I’m hoping that I am heading towards some sort of tipping point that were it not for my previous trials and tribulations, would not be possible. That would validate all of the crap I dealt with, all of the wedding videos I had to shoot on what would have otherwise been a perfectly good summer weekend, all of the debt I built up, all of the time I spent working a job I hated to pay off that debt and get restarted in business, ALL OF THAT STUFF!
To quote a movie, nerdy as it may be, during The Matrix Reloaded, the old dude in the room with all the TVs wearing the white suit said to Neo
Hope. It is the quintessential human delusion, simultaneously the source of your greatest strength, and your greatest weakness.
So true. There have been so many moments, I still have them in fact, where I think about all of the stuff I need to do, all of the massive challenges I need to overcome to create the business I envision, and the lifestyle I envision, and I worry that there is no way that I can pull it off. It’s like suddenly my delusions of being able to achieve this seemingly impossible success, suddenly disappear and I realize a sobering truth that I have wasted the last 5 years of my life. I could have been working at some real estate firm like everyone else I know. I could have been a Chartered Accountant two times over by now, made manager, well on my way to partner. I could have a house, maybe a sweet car too. Then I get back to work, reminding myself that I don’t need to live in that reality. I can create my own where those dreams are achievable. I don’t need to buy into that 9 to 5 crap.
I was on course to earn somewhere between $70-80K this year. Instead I quit my job, with no assurances that the projects I am working on will make any money. I am flying across the world, spending thousands of dollars to develop a business model I’ve never executed before, not that that would matter, because all of the business models I have executed before never really made me any money. I have HOPE, and that’s it. I have bought into the delusion that I can create my own path. So many people are leading a life where they think they have no options, where they have to work a job they hate because there just isn’t any other way. I refuse to buy into that mindset. There were a few times this year where I would get a pay cheque for over $3,000 after taxes, and I’d think to myself, maybe I’ll just do this until my projects are successful, and then I’ll quit. That just wouldn’t happen though. I’d get comfortable, I’d get weak and buy a nice car, and have the payments to follow it, I’d get a nice condo, a hot girlfriend with expensive tastes, and suddenly I’d be trapped. I’d rather be poor, but free to do whatever I want, whereever and whenever I wanted to do it.
Money is overrated, time is underrated. I feel like I should be ordained in the church of the Four Hour Work Week considering how much I preach about it’s sermons. There is so much stuff I want to do with my life, and working some 9 to 5 job “building a career” is not something I am passionate about. In my last post I listed the things that I wanted to do, would it be possible to do that building a career at someone else’s company? Not likely.
So I’m just HOPING that my horoscope was right today, that I am reaching a tipping point, and that shortly things will be taking a much more accelerated trajectory.